Oh, Remember

You hear it all the time, but it turns out... it's true. God really is in the details.  He helped us find Ellie.  He helped Jaron feel the need to change our long-planned vacation to a much less expensive option.  He also inspired him to shorten it.  We came home and the next day our groomer found a huge gash on Ellie.  We tried to fix it with super glue but It wouldn't stay closed. Jaron and Grant took her to the vet and it turned out to be pretty bad.  ....and $909.  She had to have a surgery to fix it all.  While she was down and in surgery, I started to catastrophize. Then I remembered all these things...  How God helped us be calm and we found Ellie the next morning. How he helped us shorten our trip so we could find out she even had the cut in the first place.  How we went to Beaver for free instead of renting a cabin for $1000.. Cause he knew.  He always knew.  And He has been looking out for us all this time. And I just...

We lost Ellie yesterday.  It was so horrible.  We went to Jaron's parents house for the evening for the 4th of July. Toward dusk, I felt like we should go home and put the dogs inside.  I didn't listen.  We got home so late, and my mom did too (she was with Topher). She called me and said Ellie wasn't home.  We looked everywhere.  For hours.  Jaron and Grant went out.  Kayli and Tyler Treva  Patrick  Topher even came out to help us look  She was nowhere.  I went out to look too, while I could get away from Haley. I ended up at the cemetery feeling hopeless. I went to Auntie's grave and poured out my heart. I begged for help from Auntie and Pat and any angel that could be spared. I cried and cried and pled with God to bring Ellie home for Grant.  My poor Grant.   He was distraught.  Absolutely shattered.  The few times Jaron called me while they were out looking I could hear him sobbing in th...